Between A Laugh And A Tear

I was taking Nanner to school today and that song came on the radio and I thought “Ha!  That’s exactly how I feel…between a laugh and a tear.”

Part of me wants to freak out and cry, but the other part of me…apparently, the stronger part of me, just wants to laugh at all of this mess.   We really can’t do anything besides pray, hope and keep sending out those resumes, so what’s the point in turning into a blubbering mess?  There is no point it that.

We are moving in with my parents this weekend.  The logic behind this is that we will be able to keep our utilities at little or nothing here at the house and hopefully be able to use the unemployment money to pay our house payment, car payment and feed ourselves – and if we are able to actually do that, believe me, it will be a miracle.  We are trying desperately to keep from losing the house and hoping that it will sell soon.

My dad is so sweet.  Tonight we went over there and took some of the girls’ toys and he told us that he was so excited for us to come and that he felt bad because that was selfish for him to be excited over something that is happening only because we are in this terrible situation and that he wished we weren’t in the position that we are in, but that he was truly excited for us to be there.  He said that when we stayed with them over the summer, after the flood, that he just loved coming home after work to a house filled with his family.

My mom has been working hard getting the house ready for us.  Thank goodness they’ve got room.  They live in a big old farmhouse, so we won’t have to worry too much about getting in each other’s way.  I’ll be sure and take some pictures once we get there.  I just love their property, it’s so nice, quiet and peaceful out there.

I won’t have internet out there because they can’t get wireless, only broadband and it’s super expensive, so I’ll be posting from the library.  I won’t be posting often, but I’ll try to keep up with everyone else’s blogs and try to post something at least once a week.

Thanks again everybody for all of your prayers and encouraging comments.