Wow! I just read an amazing book. It’s called Every Good and Perfect Gift by Sharon K. Souza. My sweet Mamaw recommended it to me and I have to tell you that it was the best book I’ve read in a while.
I don’t want to give any details away in case anyone wants to read it, but let me just say that it has truly inspired me in many different ways.
I often times struggle with faith. I question everything I do and sometimes feel that it just can’t be possible for God to love someone like me with all of my baggage.
While reading this book, there were SEVERAL times where I was just reading right along and then suddenly, without warning, my eyes would fill with tears and the sobs would just come flowing out. It seemed like the scriptures (every single one of them) that were referenced in this book were put there just for my eyes to see!
When Sweet Mamaw told me to read this book, she said “It might be slow in the beginning. You might not like it, but just try it and see, I thought it was really good.”
Well, every single book that she has ever recommended to me I have loved, so I figured this would be no different. But it was different this time, in that as I got further and further into the book, I would get this feeling that I was SUPPOSED to be reading this book. And I cried out to God more than once while right in the middle of it. I just can’t say enough about it and I’m not very good at putting my thoughts into words, so I just have to say again that I highly recommend this book.
Reading this book has helped me to understand that there are often times (all the time) when I am questioning everything I do as a mother. Every decision I make and what would happen if, God forbid, I should die and the girls have to grow up without their mama. Brian would take good care of them, I know, but a girl needs her mama, ya know? And the list of insecurities goes on and on.
And what I realized from this book, and it’s something that I have known all along, but just couldn’t apply it to me (for some reason that I can’t figure out), is that I am not alone. When I am scared or nervous or uncertain about something I’m doing as a mother, or a wife, or just as plain old me, all I have to do is pray or look to God’s word or preferably both! 🙂